If I had only known
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a life line to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain...
Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To You..
Happy Birthday dear Heather...
Happy Birthday To You...
The day a child is born is usually one of the happiest days in the parent's life. The mom and dad have planned and worried over their baby growing inside. Now finally they meet for the first time. Back when my girls were born we were told not to even ask what the sex of the baby was. Now it is routine to tell every parent what they are having. The moment the baby is born and cries the parent's joy and work begins. For the mother especially it is a day that she will remember and mark for the rest of her life. It is the day her body gave birth to the child she had been growing for 9 months. There is a bond that can almost never be broken. No one will ever love you more than your mother...EVER!!!
The first big milestone for December 10th was in 1987 when Heather was born. She barely made it on the 10th as she as born at 11:52pm. This was meant to be her birthday for her entire lifetime. I was hoping that she would come early and not have her birthday so close to Christmas. Regardless, December birthdays are always associated with Christmas. Heather always received birthday gifts wrapped in Christmas wrapping paper. It really didn't seem to bother her. I always tried to make sure that her birthday was celebrated before the holidays festivities began.
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again...
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a life line to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain...
Happy Birthday To You...
Happy Birthday To You..
Happy Birthday dear Heather...
Happy Birthday To You...
The day a child is born is usually one of the happiest days in the parent's life. The mom and dad have planned and worried over their baby growing inside. Now finally they meet for the first time. Back when my girls were born we were told not to even ask what the sex of the baby was. Now it is routine to tell every parent what they are having. The moment the baby is born and cries the parent's joy and work begins. For the mother especially it is a day that she will remember and mark for the rest of her life. It is the day her body gave birth to the child she had been growing for 9 months. There is a bond that can almost never be broken. No one will ever love you more than your mother...EVER!!!
The first big milestone for December 10th was in 1987 when Heather was born. She barely made it on the 10th as she as born at 11:52pm. This was meant to be her birthday for her entire lifetime. I was hoping that she would come early and not have her birthday so close to Christmas. Regardless, December birthdays are always associated with Christmas. Heather always received birthday gifts wrapped in Christmas wrapping paper. It really didn't seem to bother her. I always tried to make sure that her birthday was celebrated before the holidays festivities began.
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again...
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| Happy 21st Birthday with Minnie and Mickey-2008 |
Heather, like any other kid, looked forward to her birthday with great anticipation. Her parties included several Minnie Mouse ones, Beauty and the Beast ones and a few at McDonald's. As she got older I tried to do different more big girl things such as painting pottery or going to ZooLights. These "big girl" parties usually included one or two close friends. When Heather was 16 we had a formal tea party with 3 friends. It was a very lovely time and Heather really enjoyed the pomp and circumstance of having a tea party.
For Heather's 21st birthday the family came to Disneyland. It was a grand celebration as we flew in and stayed at the Disneyland Hotel. We had never done that before but with 2008's events we thought a little bit more celebrating for 21 seemed to be in order. We did lots of things for the first time like eating beignets, riding the Lilly Belle and having lunch with all the princesses. It was a birthday to remember in many ways, but never ever did I dream that 4 months and 10 days later Heather would die. Making that her last birthday ever.
You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And I turned my head and you slipped away..
For 21 years I had planned parties and thought about gifts that would make Heather happy. I bought balloon, party favors and made or bought her birthday cake. I usually didn't wait too long to get Heather's birthday gifts with the holiday rush on. I remember one birthday when we bought her the red light up Minnie Mouse. To say that she was thrilled didn't begin to explain her excitement for that Minnie Mouse. (A Minnie Mouse which I still have today). The day would be spent decorating and making sure all the last few details were attended to. Suddenly and with no warning December 10th abruptly ended. To the world it wasn't Heather's birthday anymore. The day became like any other day....
No more gifts to buy, no parties to plan or cakes to make. Balloons don't need to be inflated, nor decorations put up. December 10th is just an ordinary day to the rest of the world. But to me it is the day I gave birth to a baby girl whose name was Heather. This year I have a place to go to honor Heather on her special day. So Saturday I took the metal cupcake with the single candle and three metal balloons out to the cemetery. I placed them with her Christmas stuff. I do not get to sing Happy Birthday. I do not get to take her to dinner. I do not get to give her a hug and tell her I love her. Instead I get to think to myself, today is a huge day in my life as the rest of the world simply runs its course.
I decided to be selfish this year and return back to Disneyland for December 10th like in 2008. Only this time there is no Disneyland Hotel, no lunch with princesses and no ride on the Lilly Belle. Instead I wanted to get away to be at a place where maybe my memories and thoughts wouldn't hurt my heart so much. Maybe I can get lost in the business of Disneyland and just let it be an okay day. No my heart nor my mind will forget what December 10th is.
For Heather's 21st birthday the family came to Disneyland. It was a grand celebration as we flew in and stayed at the Disneyland Hotel. We had never done that before but with 2008's events we thought a little bit more celebrating for 21 seemed to be in order. We did lots of things for the first time like eating beignets, riding the Lilly Belle and having lunch with all the princesses. It was a birthday to remember in many ways, but never ever did I dream that 4 months and 10 days later Heather would die. Making that her last birthday ever.
You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And I turned my head and you slipped away..
For 21 years I had planned parties and thought about gifts that would make Heather happy. I bought balloon, party favors and made or bought her birthday cake. I usually didn't wait too long to get Heather's birthday gifts with the holiday rush on. I remember one birthday when we bought her the red light up Minnie Mouse. To say that she was thrilled didn't begin to explain her excitement for that Minnie Mouse. (A Minnie Mouse which I still have today). The day would be spent decorating and making sure all the last few details were attended to. Suddenly and with no warning December 10th abruptly ended. To the world it wasn't Heather's birthday anymore. The day became like any other day....
No more gifts to buy, no parties to plan or cakes to make. Balloons don't need to be inflated, nor decorations put up. December 10th is just an ordinary day to the rest of the world. But to me it is the day I gave birth to a baby girl whose name was Heather. This year I have a place to go to honor Heather on her special day. So Saturday I took the metal cupcake with the single candle and three metal balloons out to the cemetery. I placed them with her Christmas stuff. I do not get to sing Happy Birthday. I do not get to take her to dinner. I do not get to give her a hug and tell her I love her. Instead I get to think to myself, today is a huge day in my life as the rest of the world simply runs its course.
I decided to be selfish this year and return back to Disneyland for December 10th like in 2008. Only this time there is no Disneyland Hotel, no lunch with princesses and no ride on the Lilly Belle. Instead I wanted to get away to be at a place where maybe my memories and thoughts wouldn't hurt my heart so much. Maybe I can get lost in the business of Disneyland and just let it be an okay day. No my heart nor my mind will forget what December 10th is.
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| Happy 25th Birthday-2012 |
If I had only known
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love
For you goes on and on
If I had only known
If I had only known
The love I would've shown
If I had only known
~REBA~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eeKv_qc_aOo
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love
For you goes on and on
If I had only known
If I had only known
The love I would've shown
If I had only known
~REBA~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eeKv_qc_aOo
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